i signed up for a marathon

cave into yourself

time to go touch dirt again

stop biting your fingers

fall resolutions.... make beautiful soups, learn something you can't do yet, stop staring at shadows, repot a plant

hot

i wish i was a buoy

my love mine all mine

gone fishing

i'm a small small fish

good morning good luck

there's peace in your fingertips let it flow down your arms into your shoulders and fill your stomach where it'll spin around the knot of anxiety sitting there like an emptying drain

delete a thought

delete an account

we've built a world with too many mirrors we aren't built to know ourselves like this except as a fractured glance of our own reflection as we lower our body into a quiet lake

unfortunately, there are ghosts in the dark

today a pigeon pooped on me while i was biking and then i saw someone wearing one of those bike helmets that wrap around your neck and quickly inflate to hug your skull after you've fallen but before you hit the ground

new test

bring back the diary

found the perfect truck in seattle

frozen in place where is ur self definition all u see are long shadows

air is poison my chest is so TIGHT it anxious and temperamental and makes focusing so hard

beautiful pride ride and saw LCD this weekend heart so full and warm

kissing in a waterfall

ASAP (as slow as possible),

also yesterday i got a gravel bike dani started fostering rio

this weekend we saw ducks with long lanky legs from egypt that now live in LA by the river

today the subway is a bail bond headband, a crinkled mustard suit, a hand sneaking through closing doors to drop trash onto the tracks

need to be on a mountain

new idea: shifting thoughts around so they line up in a nice way where i can't see the nasty ones behind the close ones i'm going to try and post more quick journal draws here ~ this is the view our living room this morning

a sinking ship

fresh air

testing a fresh sentence

new breathing

test

test of a world

parking garage p patch and thoughts of new uses and slow blooms

Wish I were a bee

ducks from this morning!

we watched for 30 minutes as the heron hopped around a tree searching for the perfect branch to add to their nest. it let us stand close - just a few feet below it. it would pull at a twig, snap it free, then after a moment decide it wasn't quite right and drop it from its beak. it moved with lanky steps to different branches, eyes narrowed hunting for the right size? weight? it didn't find one that it kept. how can you build a home like that?

147! (4/29)

date <3

146! (4/28)

eve babitz gets it

145 day move streak (4/27/23)

ate a bug biking today

changed individual diary page urls so they don't expose your phone number if you want to share - now uses ur programmatic color hex 🌈

in the snow and in the sun and it's 60 degrees and i'm in a tee

mmm still 2023 though huh

S/S '24 resolution: confidently take more selfies in public

i bet all i have on that furrowed brow

https://bikepretty.com/products/hair-helmet

all these space heaters look like they're melting. towers leaning over and mesh cages bent out of shape in the heat. something can still be solid but look warped

i miss the smell of dirt. i miss trees covering the sky and trails that open into endless views. i miss sweat coving my entire body and baths in snow run off streams. the only clock is the sun moving from horizon to horizon. i want my legs to burn and my mind to be filled with simple needs and thoughts

everything is so scary and big and I feel so small and dumb. it's a good thing everyone else is just as small, just as dumb. we're doing our best to trust and forgive and accept and live with information we need and hate and love and grieve

good plants today

working on trusting old words in new ways

there's one cloud and one star in the sky. i turned on mobile data to download an app to identify the star and then two youths asked me for a pen. one was forging the signature of the other's mother on a form which would permit them to enter a club for a 16+ party. i think it's ceres. "the only object in the asteroid belt rounded by its own gravity"

psa u can now keep thoughts out of the public feed by starting a message with "#"

<3

checked off all the food groups today. nap time.

homemade pita n humus n salad today w lise it hit so hard <3

sitting at the park watching people dancing in a circle adorned with tambourines. a soccer ball flying into the lake followed by a group of young kids running after it. people fishing and geese honking -- a modern renaissance painting

a standoff

i want to take the weights off your chest

i wish i could be watching you on the big screen at the MFA. the last time i was there grizzly bear played the courtyard.

don't look back

this book weighs like 5lbs but it's so sexy

!!!!! ok here's my redemption

i can't send a pic

sorry for costing u .12 cents lmao

pic drop from today! testing an multiple images >:)

i'm having a very gay easter eating homemade spanakopita

good morning days are starting earlier

it needed to feel good for the words too

these are the notes that turned into this diary the day before i built it. the 1:1 insta feed styled a la 2015 was abandoned pretty quick for the current light minimal css feeling

coffee shop home

late night bus under a full moon we just passed maybe a hundred teenagers taking over sunset on fixies downtown was filled with smoke from a fire

it'll be okay

added a small about section

it is almost impossible to avoid the excess of love a fool arouses. for only a fool is capable of excessive love. and only love makes the fool - lispector

the advantages of being foolish

11:11

i've decided not to collapse spaces or collapse new lines i want moments to be seen how messages are sent

it's a soft morning and the sun is kissing me between breaths of cold wind. yesterday i found a piece of writing from years ago, i'm not sure what i lost but i don't know if i can arrange words like that anymore

Hello sweet friend! I hope today is exactly as you hoped it would be!

la have consistent transit times WHEN

i made a page for friends i hope they like it ~ this should be a simple gentle place

hello world

hi :) I hope you’re having a beautiful day

(this is a test to see if i fixed message intake, if not it's okay everything can be fixed)

i watered all my plants today 🪴

oh i haven't tried an image and text at the same time

no apps or feed or anything i could use this from a flip phone the intrusive thoughts can just run wild also there's no reason multiple people can't be texting to the same feed i should try a shared page

this is my new social media

it is 66 degrees outside but warmer in my apartment, i can't see a cloud in the sky. i'm sitting on my phone at my desk sending a text message to my diary