welcome to my diary this is a growing home a poem of thoughts and moments sending a post is only done by texting XXX-XXX-5183 messages are sent into a void they can't be deleted or edited there's no ✧ reaction use any phone that can send an sms don't get lost in the feed ps start a message with '#' to post only to ur own diary to visit your own diary of posts, type your phone number here:

under construction by josh

24 07 08 • 01:07

24 06 26 • 00:00

grateful for summer

24 06 13 • 02:40

more fossils

24 06 13 • 02:13

vine ripped from the wall leaves roots shaped like fossilized arthropods or maybe ants making roads

24 06 10 • 04:28

moved apartments two weeks ago

24 05 23 • 00:06

i don't know why it happens but the texting service that this site uses sometimes glitches or smears images and i like it

24 05 22 • 23:57

easy to forget that we're all fed by the sun and sometimes all you need to feel better is a bike ride outside and suddenly the serotonin is flowing

24 05 15 • 13:46

24 05 13 • 03:41

working on being better

24 05 08 • 23:05

forgot to post this picture of my 0.5 bike grease hand

24 05 08 • 23:03

once again hit by the impossible vastness and slowness the LA Basin - sometimes 30 minutes can make you feel worlds away and sometimes you aren't even half of your 5 mile trip to glendale

24 05 08 • 22:59

24 05 01 • 15:32

to look for hobbies

24 05 01 • 15:28

get up get up

24 04 25 • 02:21

24 04 24 • 17:28

just realized this diary has been up for more than a year <3

24 04 23 • 01:47

i've been thinking about new windows. maybe they don't have the same layer of city grime, maybe they see new stars or new trees or catch the sun a few hours earlier or maybe they actually have screens to keep the bugs out

24 04 23 • 01:44

finally fixed the flats on both my bikes

24 04 17 • 19:01

in - reading more - texting friends first - reoccurring donations out - spirals

24 04 17 • 18:57

24 03 27 • 01:36

about to get an x ray on my foot

24 03 27 • 01:36

24 03 27 • 01:35

hla passed and i ran a marathon and the rest of the year is still ahead of me

24 03 27 • 01:34

haven't thought about this in a while

23 12 02 • 04:59

wish i was little bug

23 12 01 • 17:55

lungs get stronger

23 12 01 • 17:54

my phone is black and white and everything works the same and there are still shadows on the walls

23 12 01 • 03:06

23 12 01 • 03:05

23 11 06 • 19:55

i signed up for a marathon

23 10 17 • 17:07

23 10 14 • 03:51

cave into yourself

23 10 08 • 19:10

23 10 08 • 16:32

time to go touch dirt again

23 10 06 • 23:02

23 10 02 • 23:59

stop biting your fingers

23 10 02 • 23:58

fall resolutions.... make beautiful soups, learn something you can't do yet, stop staring at shadows, repot a plant

23 10 01 • 19:29

23 10 01 • 02:47

hot

23 09 26 • 14:43

23 09 22 • 17:45

i wish i was a buoy

23 09 21 • 01:18

my love mine all mine

23 09 21 • 00:13

23 09 20 • 03:07

gone fishing

23 09 19 • 18:07

i'm a small small fish

23 09 18 • 20:57

23 09 18 • 14:10

good morning good luck

23 09 17 • 00:28

there's peace in your fingertips let it flow down your arms into your shoulders and fill your stomach where it'll spin around the knot of anxiety sitting there like an emptying drain

23 09 16 • 18:16

23 09 15 • 15:06

delete a thought

23 09 15 • 15:01

delete an account

23 09 15 • 06:43

we've built a world with too many mirrors we aren't built to know ourselves like this except as a fractured glance of our own reflection as we lower our body into a quiet lake

23 09 14 • 10:43

unfortunately, there are ghosts in the dark

23 09 12 • 03:30

today a pigeon pooped on me while i was biking and then i saw someone wearing one of those bike helmets that wrap around your neck and quickly inflate to hug your skull after you've fallen but before you hit the ground

23 09 11 • 20:23

new test

23 09 08 • 11:16

23 09 05 • 23:21

23 08 03 • 15:33

bring back the diary

23 07 21 • 08:26

found the perfect truck in seattle

23 07 14 • 10:54

frozen in place where is ur self definition all u see are long shadows

23 07 14 • 10:50

23 07 06 • 11:34

air is poison my chest is so TIGHT it anxious and temperamental and makes focusing so hard

23 06 07 • 10:09

beautiful pride ride and saw LCD this weekend heart so full and warm

23 05 29 • 23:22

kissing in a waterfall

23 05 24 • 15:30

ASAP (as slow as possible),

23 05 22 • 13:24

also yesterday i got a gravel bike dani started fostering rio

23 05 22 • 09:35

this weekend we saw ducks with long lanky legs from egypt that now live in LA by the river

23 05 18 • 09:11

today the subway is a bail bond headband, a crinkled mustard suit, a hand sneaking through closing doors to drop trash onto the tracks

23 05 16 • 08:38

need to be on a mountain

23 05 14 • 18:31

23 05 11 • 01:11

new idea: shifting thoughts around so they line up in a nice way where i can't see the nasty ones behind the close ones i'm going to try and post more quick journal draws here ~ this is the view our living room this morning

23 05 10 • 15:15

a sinking ship

23 05 10 • 15:12

fresh air

23 05 10 • 15:03

testing a fresh sentence

23 05 10 • 14:41

new breathing

23 05 10 • 14:38

test

23 05 10 • 14:29

test of a world

23 05 09 • 17:01

parking garage p patch and thoughts of new uses and slow blooms

23 05 08 • 22:17

23 05 07 • 11:34

23 05 02 • 18:21

Wish I were a bee

23 05 02 • 16:37

ducks from this morning!

23 05 01 • 10:28

we watched for 30 minutes as the heron hopped around a tree searching for the perfect branch to add to their nest. it let us stand close - just a few feet below it. it would pull at a twig, snap it free, then after a moment decide it wasn't quite right and drop it from its beak. it moved with lanky steps to different branches, eyes narrowed hunting for the right size? weight? it didn't find one that it kept. how can you build a home like that?

23 04 30 • 12:21

147! (4/29)

23 04 29 • 18:10

date <3

23 04 28 • 22:04

146! (4/28)

23 04 28 • 15:50

eve babitz gets it

23 04 28 • 11:33

145 day move streak (4/27/23)

23 04 27 • 16:12

23 04 24 • 19:44

ate a bug biking today

23 04 24 • 10:15

changed individual diary page urls so they don't expose your phone number if you want to share - now uses ur programmatic color hex 🌈

23 04 23 • 11:17

in the snow and in the sun and it's 60 degrees and i'm in a tee

23 04 23 • 10:48

23 04 21 • 20:01

23 04 21 • 05:58

mmm still 2023 though huh

23 04 21 • 05:58

23 04 21 • 05:57

S/S '24 resolution: confidently take more selfies in public

23 04 21 • 05:57

23 04 20 • 13:14

i bet all i have on that furrowed brow

23 04 20 • 09:58

https://bikepretty.com/products/hair-helmet

23 04 19 • 12:37

23 04 18 • 21:03

all these space heaters look like they're melting. towers leaning over and mesh cages bent out of shape in the heat. something can still be solid but look warped

23 04 17 • 20:35

i miss the smell of dirt. i miss trees covering the sky and trails that open into endless views. i miss sweat coving my entire body and baths in snow run off streams. the only clock is the sun moving from horizon to horizon. i want my legs to burn and my mind to be filled with simple needs and thoughts

23 04 16 • 23:34

everything is so scary and big and I feel so small and dumb. it's a good thing everyone else is just as small, just as dumb. we're doing our best to trust and forgive and accept and live with information we need and hate and love and grieve

23 04 16 • 11:36

23 04 16 • 11:35

good plants today

23 04 16 • 10:49

working on trusting old words in new ways

23 04 14 • 09:38

23 04 14 • 09:37

23 04 13 • 14:09

23 04 13 • 14:09

there's one cloud and one star in the sky. i turned on mobile data to download an app to identify the star and then two youths asked me for a pen. one was forging the signature of the other's mother on a form which would permit them to enter a club for a 16+ party. i think it's ceres. "the only object in the asteroid belt rounded by its own gravity"

23 04 12 • 16:08

psa u can now keep thoughts out of the public feed by starting a message with "#"

23 04 12 • 13:51

<3

23 04 11 • 18:31

23 04 11 • 08:05

checked off all the food groups today. nap time.

23 04 10 • 20:53

homemade pita n humus n salad today w lise it hit so hard <3

23 04 10 • 16:45

23 04 09 • 17:50

sitting at the park watching people dancing in a circle adorned with tambourines. a soccer ball flying into the lake followed by a group of young kids running after it. people fishing and geese honking -- a modern renaissance painting

23 04 09 • 17:48

a standoff

23 04 09 • 14:31

i want to take the weights off your chest

23 04 09 • 12:07

i wish i could be watching you on the big screen at the MFA. the last time i was there grizzly bear played the courtyard.

23 04 09 • 08:25

don't look back

23 04 08 • 23:17

this book weighs like 5lbs but it's so sexy

23 04 08 • 19:52

!!!!! ok here's my redemption

23 04 08 • 19:41

i can't send a pic

23 04 08 • 19:41

23 04 08 • 19:41

sorry for costing u .12 cents lmao

23 04 08 • 14:42

pic drop from today! testing an multiple images >:)

23 04 08 • 12:43

i'm having a very gay easter eating homemade spanakopita

23 04 08 • 08:47

23 04 08 • 08:39

good morning days are starting earlier

23 04 07 • 16:52

it needed to feel good for the words too

23 04 07 • 16:46

these are the notes that turned into this diary the day before i built it. the 1:1 insta feed styled a la 2015 was abandoned pretty quick for the current light minimal css feeling

23 04 07 • 16:08

coffee shop home

23 04 07 • 08:05

23 04 06 • 23:28

late night bus under a full moon we just passed maybe a hundred teenagers taking over sunset on fixies downtown was filled with smoke from a fire

23 04 06 • 22:07

it'll be okay

23 04 06 • 19:12

23 04 06 • 16:36

added a small about section

23 04 06 • 16:22

it is almost impossible to avoid the excess of love a fool arouses. for only a fool is capable of excessive love. and only love makes the fool - lispector

23 04 06 • 16:11

the advantages of being foolish

23 04 06 • 11:11

11:11

23 04 06 • 10:57

i've decided not to collapse spaces or collapse new lines i want moments to be seen how messages are sent

23 04 06 • 08:15

it's a soft morning and the sun is kissing me between breaths of cold wind. yesterday i found a piece of writing from years ago, i'm not sure what i lost but i don't know if i can arrange words like that anymore

23 04 06 • 08:15

23 04 05 • 18:33

Hello sweet friend! I hope today is exactly as you hoped it would be!

23 04 05 • 18:31

la have consistent transit times WHEN

23 04 05 • 18:11

23 04 05 • 16:19

i made a page for friends i hope they like it ~ this should be a simple gentle place

23 04 05 • 16:03

hello world

23 04 05 • 15:59

hi :) I hope you’re having a beautiful day

23 04 05 • 15:13

(this is a test to see if i fixed message intake, if not it's okay everything can be fixed)

23 04 05 • 14:53

i watered all my plants today 🪴

23 04 05 • 13:33

oh i haven't tried an image and text at the same time

23 04 05 • 13:30

no apps or feed or anything i could use this from a flip phone the intrusive thoughts can just run wild also there's no reason multiple people can't be texting to the same feed i should try a shared page

23 04 05 • 13:14

this is my new social media

23 04 05 • 13:11

23 04 05 • 13:10

23 04 05 • 13:06

it is 66 degrees outside but warmer in my apartment, i can't see a cloud in the sky. i'm sitting on my phone at my desk sending a text message to my diary